Thursday, October 27, 2011

What has REALLY been going on.....

I could give you a million reasons for the EXTREME lack of updates since our trip to Africa and they could all be very valid but I haven't shared much because I wasn't ready and wasn't sure how much to share and frankly the situation changed by the day. I am over all of that now and want to fill you in the best I can so I can then do more posts about the time we spent there.

On the first day we were in Africa we felt like we had found our child. I can't really explain it but we both felt like that. We were taken hours out of the city with reps from our attorneys office and met a probation officer ( like a social worker or CPS in the US) because she had 1 orphanage and 2 children in foster care for us to visit. I wont go into all of the details but we first went to the orphanage and left with very heavy hearts, it was the first orphanage I had ever been in. We then went to the foster homes. The little girl we immediately connected with was at the first one. We were assured all of these children were ready to be adopted. We walked almost a half mile off a dirt road thru corn, goats,and cows just to get to her. We spent time with her, took pictures with her, and then conveyed our feelings to the PO, attorney, and attorney assistant that was with us. Things seemed to be progressing for us to spend more time with her.
then. everything. changed.
Weird emotions started flying ( not by us) , we had to hand her back and leave. We were originally told we would know something in 2 weeks, a couple of days later everything seemed fine. We visited the other orphanages and then had to come home. VERY heavy hearted. Once again things seemed to turn our way. At one point it was a very real expectation to have her home by Thanksgiving or Christmas Then (yep you guessed it) they turned the other way. We were then told to wait 3 months. This. is . not. making. sense. We continued to fight and prayed hard. We then decided to take advantage of some help that had been offered to us as this was beginning to become more and more yucky feeling. We did and sure enough the situation is just not going to be. To say we are/were heartbroken is an understatement BUT we have a peace. We DO NOT under any circumstance want to be a part of anything that is not kosher.

So we have turned the little girl over to the Lord and are waiting on an email or call for the child God has in store for our family. Are we disappointed? Yes. Are we frustrated? Yes. Do we KNOW we are doing the right thing? Yes.

And so we wait and wait some more. We should be getting good at this by now. We are ok. We know that there is a reason and we fully trust the Lord. When we can't see His plan we are trusting in His hand.

Thanks for all of your support. More updates soon. Cant wait for the one about the day we spent in a village with some Uganda friends.



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4 comments:

Kendra said...

Mandie-
I haven't kept up on your happenings so i had absolutely no idea what you have been up to with your adoption. WOW! what a whirlwind. i will be praying for your family. i don't really understand the process soo much with an independent adoption, but i'll keep watching your blog for details. i have you "tagged" now on MY blog.

blessings, friend.
Kendra

Erin said...

Thanks so much for updating. I was just thinking about you the other day and wondering what was up. I do know that our God is a God of surprises, so keep on walking. A good thing is in store! :)

Jennifer said...

Interesting what the Lord has planned!

Donna said...

As the mother of two adopted children and one that we "lost" after having him for over 7 months, I understand some of the emotions you are going through right now. I can only say, I know that God will work this out for your good and His glory.
My children are now 17 and 14....I am just now beginning to see how God was working in the circumstances of our lives over 25 years ago. It's easy to say, but difficult to do - Trust that He has a perfect plan and is working even when you do not see or understand.
Hugs from Mississippi
Donna
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